I have always wanted to win the lottery. Who hasn’t? We all want a sense of financial security and freedom.

I remember watching the cartoon Duck Tales after school and seeing Scrooge jump off the diving board at the top of his bank vault. With great glee he swam through mounds of golden coins, until at last he did a backstroke, his eyes closed in complete contentment. When I imagine winning the lottery, I picture feeling the same kind of glee, and then afterwards the same kind of contentment.

A few years ago, I broke from my long standing opinion that playing the lottery was wasting my money. I still thought it was wasting my money, but I played anyway. The lure of all that money was too much. Anytime the Mega Millions jackpot got above 100 million, I stopped into my local gas station and bought one ticket. That was all it took right? A dollar and a dream? And lots of prayer. I prayed feverously that my numbers would be called, pushing aside one nagging thought.

If God really wanted me to have that much money, there were plenty of avenues to give it to me.

Someone could stop me on the road while I was running and toss me a briefcase full of hundred dollar bills. Some rich billionaire could stumble across this very website and donate astronomical sums of money. I could meet a beautiful, rich heiress and fall madly in love. I could wake up one morning with the idea for an invention as useful as hangers.

These avenues—and more—were there and just as likely as my exact ticket numbers matching the winning numbers. However, none of those avenues brought me money. God didn’t want to give me that much money yet. I wondered why.

I would use the money wisely. I would help a lot of people. I would build orphanages in Thailand and in Africa, two places that have been on my heart for a long time. I would start a scholarship fund at my old university. If anyone has the chance for it don’t let it go, it is the best recommendation I can give, it is not everyone who can manage to apply or win one to help their education, it is a privilege to have one.  I would do all these things and more.

My good intentions didn’t help me win the lottery though. I was terribly disappointed. I wanted to win so bad. I just wanted to be free and not let money deter me from what I really wanted to do or the things I wanted to spend my time on. I didn’t want to wake up to an alarm clock anymore for the sole reason of going to work. I didn’t want to have to go to work everyday. Well, to be honest, I wanted to be able to be lazy.

Which is probably one of the best reasons I haven’t come into vast sums of money yet. I’m not ready to handle the responsibility. We all have heard stories of people that have won the lottery and a year later they are even worse off. I could be the same kind of person. I do not have the habits or the foundation I need to handle that much money. No matter how much I want it.

Next Week – A Foundation That Attracts Money and Success

© Seth Crossman